Skip to main content

Farewell, peace. And bugs.

I have turned into a bit of a grump today. It all started when I woke up this morning and realized that I couldn't focus, for whatever reason. For the last 5 days I have woke up, put on shoes and a sweater, grabbed a cup of coffee and boogied my way on out the front door of this cabin to sit on the porch and have my quiet time. This has been a time for me to read, write and, most importantly, talk to God. In all honestly, it has been my favorite part of the trip. 

But, not this morning. No, sir. I got up and came outside, sans coffee, and couldn't focus on anything. I couldn't get through any but two pages of my book and writing, well, that just didn't happen. I tried talking to God but my focus was so bad that I probably had the poor guy spinning in circles. 

I cant quite put my finger on what my issue is today other than the fact that I have to leave all of this tomorrow. Good reason, right? I have to go back to the hustle and bustle of life and the important things are going to get a smaller piece of the pie I have to offer. Before you decide to try and give me a lecture on time management skills, I know all about them. My problem is that I have too many things I want and need to do that force me to have to spend less quality time on everything in general. So, in turn, my attention to reading and writing and talking to God are just, well, different. Instead of my quiet mornings, I will be rushing to get to work, talking to God on my commute, rather than a picnic table in the woods overlooking a lake. My reading will take place at night, and will usually consist of having only one eye open, comprehending about 60% of what passes through my brain. 

I'm not complaining. Really, I am not. I have just truly enjoyed this week and it has opened my eyes to what my world could be like. One day. At a different time than this. I've been reminded of important things that I let slip away on any ordinary day. Life can be much simpler than I tend to make it. 

Moving in slow motion to not miss anything, walks and talks with the big guy, the outdoors (including the sounds, the bugs, the whole nine yards), cooking on the grill and campfire,
time with family playing games and watching scary movies in the middle of nowhere (come on, you know it sounds fun... Especially when you are looking up at this while watching.. )
On a side note, I will tell you that we scared ourselves so badly with the movies and the "what ifs" that we had to hang blankets and towels over the windows that didn't have curtains! Sad, I know.

All in all, I think I am going to take away with me the idea that our lives are not set in stone... things do not have to remain the way they are. In fact, forgetting to leave it in God's hands and run throughout the day at a speed that leaves no time for anything is, well, pointless. And meaningless. (thinking Ecclesiastes here.) 

Only I can work to change that. And, I guess, even though it'd be nice, I don't have to have a vacation cabin in the woods to do so. I can turn my own home into my own retreat. God will be there. Always.

Until next time... stay blessed, my friends. And, if ya have a quick moment, say a prayer for our safe travels.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Quench your thirst

In my mind, I keep coming back to this location, location, location thing.
I always used to get irritated when people would come to Florida to visit and harp on me about not having a killer tan -- as if I had all the time in the world to sit at the beach! But those who visit -- that is what they do -- visit the beach! They come into town, get a tan, and head on home to show it off.
When you live here, it is a different story. You have your daily routine that includes work, appointments, shopping, cooking, cleaning, etc. A trip to the beach has to be weaseled in. And, even then, it seems like something needs to get put on the back burner.
When you manage to squeeze it in and arrive at the beach, you can start to relax once you are able to let everything go that could've/should've/would've been done had you not decided to head east. The smell of the salty air, the crashing of the waves, the sand between your toes, and the smiles on everyone's faces... why don't we do th…

If today is your last...

Have you ever really thought about the fact that we may not be here next week? Tomorrow? By 9:00 pm tonight? We don't know when we are going to get called home -- we just know that we will one day. It is inevitable. 
And then there are those who sorta get a heads up... say you fall ill and your doctor tells you that you only have a small window of human life left in you. Or, maybe you hear a small voice or get a feeling that your time to head home is coming... 
Think about it: You hear the words, "Good morning, <insert your name>, today is your last day to live on earth." What would you do? How would you react? 
Something tells me some folks may begin rushing around in a panic trying to quickly pack everything into 24-hours that they didn't take the time to do before now. All those things on the bucket list -- the sky diving, the traveling, seeing your favorite football team play live, trying to finish the kitchen sink ice cream challenge, singing a solo at church…

This could be you

Lets talk hypothetical situations for a minute, shall we? You are walking down the street. You see a man sitting on the ground, his back against a building. Upon first glance, you notice his disheveled appearance, worn clothing, and the grungy backpack sitting close to him. What is your first thought? When you see his face, what or who do you see?
This is where I am learning people differ. And I apologize in advance for my bit of a rant... 
Recently, I was reading the book of Job. If you are not familiar with his story, Job was a good, faithful man who had done well in life. In my version of the bible (NLT), he is referred to as "blameless." Satan approached God and wanted to test Job's faith. God told him that he could test him in any manner he wanted, but to spare his life. During this process, Job lost all his children, his sheep, camels, oxen, donkeys, servants, etc. His body was covered in boils from head to toe. His spirits were down, but his faith never faltered. 
Ho…