Sometimes I forget why I chose to do what I do. I made a huge change in my life recently, trying to transition into writing full-time. In order to do that, I have had to learn a great deal. I have spent so much time researching, reading, searching, writing, reviewing, posting, etc. that I sometimes have to stop and remind myself that it is for God that I write. I mean, it is for him that I am even able to write! I started this goal with him in mind -- build an audience, create a platform, share God's word. When I start to feel a little off, I begin to find that I have lost my focus; I have started to look too much into how to succeed as a writer, rather than looking at God and succeeding as his disciple.
I am sure I am not the only one who finds herself in this situation. I know many of you believe in God (if you don't, we need to talk) and have God in the forefront of your mind. Do you ever forget to focus on the real reason you are here? Do you get caught up in the business of human existence rather than preparation for your eternal existence?
Let your eyes look straight ahead, And your eyelids look right before you. Ponder the path of your feet, And let all your ways be established. - Proverbs 4:25-26 (NKJV)
The most simple answer to combat this would be to never lose focus -- never lose sight of God. But he created us as humans and, well, we are quite a bit faulty. We are going to lose focus and we are going to mess up (thankfully, he is so forgiving!) So the 2nd best thing to do would be to make sure you remain in touch with yourself and you will know when you are not feeling right. When things just seem to be out of whack, your attention is hard to find, or you feel a bit off balance -- that is when you know you need to reconnect and find God. Ignoring these feelings will only push you further and further away from him.
Today is one of those days for me. I am taking some time to think, to talk to God, and to get back on my track. I know that he is still there, he is just waiting for me to push my door back open. I need him to continue my climb in life.
He is waiting for you, too. Seek him first.